Lily in her dreams.

This year hasn't been all that nice to me and just a few weeks ago I was having constantly nightmares. By nightmares I don't mean monsters or murders, I like that kind of dreams. Anyway my nightmares were all about my every day life and that really sucked. I was burned out mentally and physically and I decided to keep a break from everything. Now that weeks have passed I'm feeling a bit more human again. Life looks ok again and like I said in my journal I got into an art school that is really helping me to draw more and better and that's a really big deal for me. I'm not fond of explaining my symbolism in pictures but this one deals with the impossibility of staying human and living up to expectations at the same time.

About symbolism: Some of my works have symbolism that is meant just for me, I hope you can enjoy my pictures nevertheless.

I painted this about as long as my other pictures but in very small bits. I didn't want to force myself to finish it just for the sake of finishing it. This is the first piece I've done on my new 30" screen, it's so dreamy that I can't put it into words much less of that zooming hassle. I really put effort in studying shiny fabrics for this, maybe some day I'll be more quick at them, I hope.

8000x4234 actual pixels Painter IX, intuos3, no ref